As much as I waxed lyrical about how I was only joining the online dating world to meet new people, there was a small part of me that hoped I would actually meet someone as a result of it. Things got off to a good start and I met two really interesting blokes, one of whom I am still in contact with and think this could be a long term friendship thing – but I’m not sure I feel that spark. The other… well at the time of writing still MIA and with the planned date supposed to be happening tomorrow but no messages for almost a week means I am officially writing him off (pity!).
So after 2 weeks ‘online’ the only thing I seem to have found is a bucket load of rejection!
Is it wrong that I’ve already had enough? I’m sick and tired of having to come up with new and interesting ways to introduce myself. I am grumpy that I seem to be in a never ending rotation of ‘how was your day?’ ‘Good. How was yours?’ type conversations and if I have to tell one more person what I need to do for a living I may just scream!!
However, I don’t want to give up (I can’t I was conned out of 6 months’ worth of membership!!!!) so when I have some free time I log on and try to find some more people to chat with; but today I feel I may make more progress hitting my head against a brick wall.
I think the problem is I know too much, well that and I think the website lied to me when I first joined! I can know see when people have viewed my profile and so I am becoming aware of people I am sending a message too looking at my profile and then not bothering to respond. Full on rejection and it happened to me twice today before I had even had breakfast. Then there are the people who are looking and not commenting – what my picture was tempting but now you have found out more about me you think I’m not worth getting to know??
I know I am not everyone’s cup of tea. But if someone has made the effort to send me a message I at least reply. Even if I know I am not interested I thank them for reaching out. But men (and yes I am going to blame all males as one!!) nothing, nadda, zip. Or they have sent a few messages but then suddenly vanish, mid conversation…
I keep telling myself it was all about fun. It was just a way to meet new people and get me used to the idea about their being someone else in my life; to prove to me that I could move on and get excited about receiving a text from someone other than the ex. But God it would have been nice to not feel so completely rejected by every man with a nice smile and an apparent sense of humour under the age of 40!!!