My ex is an ass. I know it won’t surprise you but it still kinda hurts me. I was never under some illusion that he was perfect, honestly his flaws are a mile long; as I am well aware are my own! However sometimes it takes me by surprise when I realise just how much of an ass he can be.
After a really rough weekend for me which saw me attending the last event that ‘we’ should have attended together and which was booked in the calendar when ‘we’ were still a ‘we’ (I don’t know why that hurts but it does!) I had to contact him to organise collecting the last of my stuff from his house and I asked him to be out of the house for the time it would take me to remove my stuff. Apparently this request was completely unreasonable, and he went off on one. Eventually saying that if he wasn’t going to be allowed in my new house then I wouldn’t be welcome in his. Um, totally not the same I don’t want to visit the house I need to move out the rest of my stuff which I am only moving out because you kicked me out!!!!!! (and breath!)
Anyway. I have been trying to grow a couple of tomato plants in my garden, I have 5 but after a quick chat with my tomato expert friend I am down to 3 as 2 of them have been given a death sentence as they are looking a bit poorly dead and need to be cremated so that whatever has deaded them doesn’t spread to my remaining healthy plants (touch wood they stay that way!)
I’ll be honest my initial thought was to call the ex and ask for his help. He has an outdoor chimney and so he could safely burn my two plants. I got as far as finding his number, but then I had a stern talk with myself. I have to stop thinking I am not capable. I have to stop thinking I can’t do this. I have to stop wanting him to make everything better.
I have thought about it and if I’m careful I should be able to get a small fire burning in the back of my garden. I have a big concrete slab and so (in my head) I should be able to build a small fire on there without doing too much damage. I mean it doesn’t have to be huge or burn for long…..so that is the plan for tonight, along with painting a room, a ceiling and laying some tiles (o I am so running out of time to decorate before the carpets come on Friday!) that I will build a little fire and claim back some of my independence. Just keep everything crossed that this doesn’t go horribly wrong and I end up burning down my new neighbours fence!!
Um… don’t know if I should admit to this. Just tried to heat some popcorn in the oven for a snack…kinda set fire to it….hope this isn’t a sign!!
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I hope your burning went well. 🙂 I’ll check back on you tomorrow.
It didn’t happen I am ashamed to admit. I had full intentions but then realised I have less than 24 hours and 5 ceilings to paint so they are hidden away to be burnt at a later date!
Are you still alive & with fence? Im growing tomatoes too, can’t wait till they turn red 🙂
I am alive and with fence. In fact I feel a bit naughty, having said I will I got home, was so tired and had 5 ceilings to paint in less than 24 hours so the burning has been put on hold. However when it burns I will take photos!
Sorry I’ve been out of the loop for a while. But I’m back. I’m glad you finally got your new house. It’s sad that things between you and are ex are getting a little ugly. It got that way with me and my ex as well. When he left me, I tried to hang on. I tried to keep things civil in hopes that we might get back together some day. But the civility didn’t last. Are you still able to see BD?
Yes for the moment I am. I am hoping that things will not turn too ugly as i would hate for it to end that way (I hate that it’s ending). I have accepted that we will never be friends and that going forward I am going to try not to see him but I would hate to part on bad terms!!!